My weight journey

I married my loving husband 4 days after the 9/11 attacks. We were married on September 15, 2001. We went on a wonderful week long honeymoon to Kauai. Soon after arriving back home I developed an allergic rash across my face. At first my doctor thought it was just a simple rash. He gave me a cream which made the rash grow like wildfire. Before I knew it was covering my eyelids and almost my entire face. I was put on prednisone z-pac. After a week the rash cleared up but my tongue started to swell. My doctor once again put me on prednisone z-pac. I gained 30lbs in just 3 weeks!! Yes that is a whopping 10 lbs per week! I was devastated. And we still don't know why I had those allergic reactions. The prednisone made me feel exhausted and depressed. And the weight didn't help.I had never had any problems with my weight until this point in my life. I believe this was the beginning of my issues with keeping weight off.

By 2003 I ended up at 174lbs and decided to join Weight Watchers. I lost 50lbs by Sept 2003. I felt great. In 2004 we decided to head to Italy and start trying to have a baby. Unfortunately we didn't have the timing right. After several months of trying we were getting discouraged and my mother became very ill. I was so stressed out I gained back all of my weight and then some. My weight has been like a yo-yo ever since then. I am now at an all time high of 188lbs. I truly believe in my heart that my weight is holding me back from life and becoming a mother.